386: Taken by The Grays - Midweek Mysteries

[00:00:00] Welcome, and thank you for listening. I'm your host, Nic Ryan. Tonight's report comes to us from Louise, and Louise's story is called, Am I an Abductee? Louise says, Hi Nic, I just want to start by saying I appreciate you creating a platform where we can share

[00:00:30] our stories without fear of judgment. Even if we don't have closure by sharing what we've experienced, sometimes it's just nice to get it off our chest in a safe space. So thank you for that.

[00:00:43] I suspect that I've been an alien abductee for most of my life, and years ago it all culminated into one experience that finally erased most of my skepticism. I'd like to share the events leading up to that experience, before I share it.

[00:00:58] When I was around 13, so in 2008 I believe, I saw my first and only UFO. We lived on a farm in rural South Carolina, and it was my turn to feed the horses that evening.

[00:01:10] The pasture was right behind our house, and as I rounded the side of the house and headed toward the front of the pasture, I noticed five glowing orange orbs floating above the ground in the middle of the pasture.

[00:01:21] I'm going to throw out there that I have no concept of distance. I don't know how people see UFOs and confidently declare that it was so-and-so meters long and this many miles up in the sky.

[00:01:33] I don't possess that skill, but if I had to guess, I would say the orbs were about 30 to 50 feet off the ground, so not super high up. Anyway, I don't remember feeling dread or paralyzed with fear, I was just curious. That is, until they started floating toward me.

[00:01:51] I booked it back around the house and ran straight to my room to look out my window and view them from the safety of my home. But when I got to the window, they were nowhere to be seen.

[00:02:02] My family thought that I was crazy, but I knew what I saw. I'd also like to throw out there that these were not flares. I'm not going to spend a lot of time on that, you'll just have to trust me.

[00:02:13] I've seen flares, and that's definitely not what these things were. After this experience, the dreams and phobias began. I would dream maybe once a month or so, but sometimes less often, about UFOs coming down from the sky.

[00:02:29] I would know that they were up there and they were coming for us, but nobody believed me until suddenly some stars would start moving in weird ways, and then they would start to descend toward us.

[00:02:40] I would feel so much fear that it would wake me up before the craft reached the ground, except in one dream where I did witness it land. It was round but had all kinds of geometric sides with a ton of colorful lights. It's very hard to describe.

[00:02:55] I wish I could just take the image from my brain and share it with you. I only saw these beings exit a craft once, and they were very human-looking. They landed near the horse pasture in the dream.

[00:03:07] They had grayish skin with dark hair, and they were all wearing big black sunglasses. In two dreams, I was actually on a craft, but I don't remember much about those dreams no matter how hard I try.

[00:03:19] I developed an extreme fear of windows and open doors, and I would sleep completely underneath the blankets at night, even my head. I would make a little breathing hole by my mouth, but that was it. I couldn't even extend my legs in my sleep.

[00:03:34] I had to sleep on a tight ball and make myself as small as possible. If there was the slightest crack in my blinds or curtains, my chest would feel heavy, and I wouldn't be able to rest.

[00:03:45] I slept this way until I married my husband four years ago, and felt a little relief for the first time, now that there was someone in the bed with me, that I felt safe with.

[00:03:56] Now I didn't find this out until years later, but my parents saw several UFOs at night while we lived on that property after my initial sighting. It didn't help that our house was obnoxiously haunted, but that's a different story for a different day.

[00:04:10] Eventually, I subconsciously pushed all of this to the back of my mind. I really didn't have it in me to decide if I believed all this or not. I didn't have the energy for it, and the dreams became less frequent.

[00:04:23] However, about a year after the dreams stopped, I started to see this symbol in my mind's eye. This is where the event comes in that finally made me realize that it wasn't all in my head.

[00:04:36] I would be driving, doing the dishes, or just doing something at work, and this symbol would just pop into my mind. It was like it was being inserted into my mind or something. It was very simple, just five black dots in the shape of a triangle.

[00:04:51] This went on for a week before I finally started to feel genuinely stressed out by this, and I thought very loudly, I don't want to know who or what is showing me this, you obviously want my attention,

[00:05:03] so either give me proof that all this is real, or leave me alone. That same night, I was staying at a friend's house. She had big windows all around her room, so I was in hermit crab mode when I went to sleep.

[00:05:16] I was curled up in my usual ball, completely under the covers except for my signature breathing hole. At some point in the night, I woke up. I don't know what time it was, just that it was still dark out, except for a bright blue

[00:05:30] light moving just outside the windows. I remember that so vividly. I suddenly became aware that I was lying on my back, completely straight, legs straight out, my arms straight against my sides, and I was staring straight up at the ceiling,

[00:05:45] so I was seeing the blue light moving outside the window, from the corner of my eyes. My friend, a 4'0", 90 pound girl, who definitely couldn't have moved me, especially without waking me up as I'm a light sleeper, was snoring beside me.

[00:06:01] Now I typically suffer from insomnia, and especially if I wake up in the middle of the night, it usually takes me quite a while to get back to sleep. But this night, when I woke up, I became aware of the blue light and my position in

[00:06:13] the bed, and all I could think was, they just put me back. Then I blacked out. The next morning, I woke up around 8am to a panicky text from my sister, who was living about an hour away from where I'd been staying the night.

[00:06:29] The text was time stamped around 4am. She said that she'd gone outside to smoke a cigarette before getting ready for her early shift at the local gas station, and when she looked up at the dark sky, she saw a ship

[00:06:41] hovering above the trees with lights on the bottom. She ran back inside to grab her phone, but when she got back to the porch, it was gone. She was panicking because she said that when she saw it, all she could think was, My sister is up there.

[00:06:57] My sister is up there. At this point, she felt a lot of fear because of that. I saw her later that day, and I asked for more details on what she saw, but I already knew what she was going to say.

[00:07:10] It was a ship, triangle-shaped, and it had five lights along the bottom. Needless to say, I got the message loud and clear after that night. About three years later, I decided to try a hypnotic regression session to see if I could recall what happened to me that night.

[00:07:27] I won't include that here as this is already pretty long, and I know there's a lot of skepticism around hypnotic regression. Even I, a staunch believer, have taken my memory recall with a grain of salt. The human mind and memory can be a tricky thing.

[00:07:42] I'm also happy to share a picture of that symbol that I saw, which I now have tattooed on the back of my neck. Thank you again for all that you do, and for giving me a platform to share my story.

[00:07:54] If there are others out there like me, I just want them to know that they are not alone, and they aren't crazy. I also have to add that as I was typing this out, my power flickered on and off.

[00:08:07] It's a bright sunny day, and there's no reason that that would have happened. Maybe they just wanted to say hello. I asked Louise to elaborate on a couple of aspects of her experience, including the tattoo and the past life regression that she mentioned.

[00:08:23] And this is what Louise had to say. When I started seeing this symbol in my mind, I felt a strong urge to have the symbol tattooed onto the back of my neck. I really don't have an explanation for why.

[00:08:36] I had made a sort of silly bet in my mind when I dared whatever it was to give me proof that if they actually did give me some kind of proof that something paranormal was actually going on, that I would get the tattoo. Well, they did.

[00:08:50] So I did. Whenever I remember that it's back there, it reminds me of this part of my life. I haven't had any more experiences since I married my husband, other than waking up with

[00:09:00] just a feeling in my gut that I had been visited in the night on one occasion. I didn't open up to him about my experience until about a year into our marriage, primarily because of what I recalled during the regression.

[00:09:13] He was incredibly supportive, never made me feel crazy at all, and has just all around been an amazing support system for me. But it was difficult to talk about it, and I've only ever shared it with him, my mom, and my sister. Until now.

[00:09:29] As for the past life regression, I do have a recording of it, but I haven't been able to bring myself to listen to it since it was recorded. But if there is one person out there who hears it and feels relief knowing they're not alone

[00:09:40] in having a similar experience, it would be worth sharing. But I understand if it's a little too outlandish. For anyone who hasn't had a hypnotic regression before, it's really best described as a very deep guided meditation.

[00:09:55] My memory of my regression is fuzzy, but I'll do my best to recall as many details as I can. The person I went to had been doing past life regression for about 20 years, and was willing

[00:10:05] to modify her work a bit to try and help me get to the bottom of what happened to me on that night. I didn't feel comfortable going to a regular therapist for this stuff, for what I believe is obvious reasons.

[00:10:18] She guided me through the beginning of the regression, going to my safe space and clearing my mind and things like that, until I was back in bed on that night in question. She prompted me to, in my mind's eye, open my eyes and take in my surroundings.

[00:10:34] I opened them, but I couldn't move. I was back in the room on that night, and it was dark except for the blue light spilling into the windows. I felt someone standing beside the bed, and I told her this.

[00:10:47] I was scared of what I would see, and so I refused to look, and it took her what felt like 10 or 15 minutes of coaxing and reminding me I was in a safe space before I finally glanced over to my left.

[00:10:59] Standing next to my head was a short being with a large head and gray skin, and the classic big black eyes. I'd like to interject here that I know it's cliche, but this is what I saw.

[00:11:11] Anyway, as I looked at him, just knowing somehow that it was a him, I felt terrified. I spent what felt like another 10 minutes just processing what I was looking at, and trying to fight through the paralyzing fear.

[00:11:25] At some point, I could breathe easy again, and I remember being lifted out of the bed and put on my feet. I felt like this guy didn't like me. He didn't want to be near me.

[00:11:36] There was almost a sense of familiarity in his presence, and we did not have a good rapport. He escorted me to one of the windows where there was a bright blue light coming through.

[00:11:46] It could just be the weirdness of the memory, but it felt like I glided across the floor to the window, like I wasn't walking, but he was moving me upright somehow. We stood at this large window, and then I just remember seeing this blinding light coming

[00:12:00] through, and then suddenly I was through the window and going up. I don't remember the window opening, I was just... through it. I was surrounded by light, and I felt weightless until I was in a physical corridor of some kind. The being was still beside me.

[00:12:16] I'm 5'5", and he probably came to my shoulder, just for reference. Then I was led into a room that I have vague memories of. Everything was white and clean and round. The walls and the tabletops and everything were round and sterile-looking.

[00:12:33] The next part, though, is what is hardest for me to share. I don't even know what kind of trigger warning to put here. The gray led me to a room with another being standing beside what I think was a counter.

[00:12:45] It took me a minute to look at this being. I felt overwhelmed in its presence. I finally did, though, and I saw the most incredible eyes I've ever seen in my life.

[00:12:55] She was about my height, light blue skin and a large head with a small mouth and nose and small ears that were sort of human-shaped. She had platinum blonde hair, straight and short and parted down the middle. Her eyes were like looking into a galaxy.

[00:13:11] They were large and barely had any whites, and the color was the deepest blues and purples swirled together with some black underneath. I swear they sparkled. They're the thing I remember most vividly from the entire experience.

[00:13:26] I can't remember word for word the details of our conversation, but I can share the gist of it. She told me that she was my daughter, that I had been taken by these beings when I was around 15 years old, and that's when she was conceived.

[00:13:41] She brought me back in my mind to a missing pregnancy I had when I was in high school. At the time, I was quite religious and also young and dumb, and I had prayed for God to take it away because I was so young.

[00:13:54] And suddenly, I just wasn't pregnant anymore. There was not a lot of bleeding. It was just gone. At that time, I was just glad I didn't have to tell my parents, and I didn't think too much into it. She then told me there are others.

[00:14:10] I want to say there were seven of them. She told me that I didn't carry them all, but that they used my DNA for the others. She told me that the purpose of this visit was because I wanted proof, but that she was

[00:14:22] also happy to have a visit with me. She then went on to explain how they age differently. They mature a bit faster than we do, which is why she seemed so much older than she was.

[00:14:33] She would have only been about seven years old by our measure, but I would have guessed that she was in her mid-twenties if she was human. She explained that her job was to care for their young on the ship, and I admit that

[00:14:45] I felt some anger in that moment that my alleged daughter was complicit in something so heinous. Though, one thing I remember was the intense love that I felt for her. I thought she was beautiful, and I felt a fullness in my chest just being near her.

[00:15:01] I thought to myself, she didn't ask to be part of this either. Now, I don't remember much after this, just vaguely that our time was up, and the gray guy who didn't like me came back to get me. And then I was being put back into my bed.

[00:15:17] In the months that followed, I struggled a lot with my mental health. I felt absolutely violated and not in control of my own life and my own body, and I could feel my brain trying to gaslight itself into thinking that I made the whole thing up.

[00:15:31] It made me physically sick. But something did undeniably happen that night, and I had no reason to make any of it up. I never even planned on telling anyone until now, years later, and it's under an alias.

[00:15:46] I do believe these beings communicate telepathically, and after I recalled my experience, I mentally sent as much seething anger as I could possibly muster in their direction. It's honestly no wonder that the gray guy doesn't like me, as I think we both have a bad attitude.

[00:16:04] I haven't had any more experiences that I'm aware of, but some twisted part of me wishes that I would so I could see her again, although I know that if I saw her in my waking life, I would probably pee my pants.

[00:16:18] I hope she's doing okay up there, wherever she is. I think about her. Often.